Panaderos tagged me with this many moons ago and haven’t really had the chance to do it until now. I answer tags on the other blog lately, but I opted to do this here as I feel that I have more personal things to say about my answer.
Here are the rules for this tag:
1. Link back the person who tagged you and write what was the last movie he/she or his/her family enjoyed watching recently.
2. Now your turn to tell about the movie you or your family just watched.
3. Tell something about the movie and spoilers are accepted. (hehehee)
4. Write anything that has something to do with movies: Trivia, your top choice or favorites and why, your family’s story about your favorite motion pictures, the first film you watched with your spouse/partner/special someone, any traditional film the family’s been keeping, etc… etc…
5. Copy and paste the rules of this meme on your blog and pass the tag on to as many friends, bloggers, and movie lovers you want. Don’t forget to tell them they’re tagged and to leave a comment on your blog once they’re done with the task.
I saw The Namesake last night, a movie directed by Mira Nair, based on Jhumpa Lahari’s novel of the same title. It is the story of an Indian American family’s experiences while living in the United States. The movie basically explores the thin line between being firmly rooted with your cultural identity and coming to terms with (adjustments to) the place you now call “home”.
I’ve seen quite a few films about an individual, or families, migrating or leaving their homeland behind for a number of reasons. While those films share a generic narrative about the joys and hardships of adjusting to a new place, I’d have to say that to me, this film evoked so much emotion, the actors’ performance are so heartfelt. It’s such a poignant, must-see film for anyone who’s had to go through the dance between their culture and assimilated identity.
I moved here when I was almost 18 - old enough that my being a Filipino is without and cannot be compromised - it is ingrained in my heart and soul; yet young enough to assimilate comfortably in the new environment I was plopped in. I have this special kinship to my homeland that perhaps, no matter how long I’m gone I’d still find my way home. I have childhood christmases, I have vivid memories of the mango tree in our QC home to hold on to. I have a connection with the food, the friendship and the warm tropical climate that will ultimately make me long for Manila, at times unbearably, but always with fondness. Longing. It will always be there.
However, watching this movie kind of made me think about how my child will make that connection with his being Pinoy, not discounting the fact that he’ll be born and perhaps, ultimately be raised here. I can only wish that my son would have the same attachment as I do, even with the most mundane things - a ubiquitous craving for Adobo, an innate need to feel that Pinoy Christmas spirit, a random interjection of “Pala, Eh, Ayy, and Naku” peppered in between conversation - anything, even the smallest things that would hint of his being Pinoy.
I don’t know, perhaps I’m thinking about the initial fear I had for myself when I first realized I was no longer living in my comfort zone. But so far, I turned out (relatively) okay. I guess in the end, how our son sees himself will depend a great deal upon how we raise him. After all, I’m pretty sure his world - our world, isn’t just made up of black and white. It’s a blank canvass, and I guess we can all be Jackson Pollock in our own way.